Dear Allyson,
Hello! It's Allyson...from the future. Eleven years into the future to be exact. Boy, are you in for a wild ride these next few years. I'm going to be honest with you: I don't know how I'm here right now...
So right now you're a sophomore in high school, enjoying singing and dancing in shows after class and making friends and doing really well. No one has teased you in a while because you found a group of people that accept you for who you are and don't care about how much you weigh.
A good friend is gonna introduce you to a band called Depeche Mode, if she hasn't already, and you're debating on whether or not you should listen to the CD's she burned you. Do it. Their music will change you; shape you; save you. I know you don't understand right now, but trust me, you will.
Also, laughter is gonna save you, too - not only from what you watch already because of mom. The few times you've watched Saturday Night Live, you've seen this guy named Jimmy Fallon and didn't think much of him. But when you get to my age, you're gonna adore him. Again, just trust me.
Okay, enough with the celebrity name drops: back to reality.
You're gonna graduate high school and you're gonna head off to junior college and continue to do more of the same. You're gonna make such an impression on the directors when you audition for a musical that they change one of the characters to a female so that they could cast you. You're gonna have a great relationship with your professors. You're gonna become great friends with people in the drama club and you'll go on in your academic career. Then life is going to hit, and it's gonna hit hard.
Nothing is going to be what you think anymore. I won't go into complete details, but I'll give you the basics:
- you're not going to automatically because a famous singer or actress - in fact, getting any job is going to be hell.
- flying on an airplane isn't so bad after all.
- men are going to want you for only one thing and you're going to go through a lot of dating until you meet the right guy...or girl.
- you're going to get tired of school; the thought of sitting in a classroom is going to make you want to vomit.
- your circle of friends is going to get smaller and smaller as time goes by, and you're going to be thankful for it in the long run because you're going to meet some great people.
- you won't have anyone to walk your down the aisle at your wedding.
- you won't have anyone to send a Father's Day card to anymore.
- your health isn't going to be so great, and not because you're overweight. You're gonna be seeing a lot of doctors and taking a lot of medication to feel better on a daily basis.
I can't write anymore because I'm beginning to cry. Just remember this one thing: you're stronger than you think. People are going to tell you this a LOT throughout the next several years, but when you get to be this age, you're going to start to believe it. People are going to try to bring you down in many ways, but you're holding on. There will be a point when you don't want to live anymore. But you know you're here for a reason. What the reason is, you're not going to be sure of when you get to my age, but you'll be damned if you don't find out what it is. And the only way to do that, is to keep on living. Despite the bad things, oh it's worth it to stick around. Trust me.
Love,
Allyson
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